Working from home ruined my already fragile existence

 Yeah, not a popular topic, but I'm going to slowly but surely make it one - just the way the Covid-19 pandemic and mandates to leave the office slowly but surely deprived us of a great sense of responsibility and capacity to get along with others.

Working from home was fun and exciting for the first month, but after companies - who are run by men and women of the Hobbesian-ethic - determined that, sure, our existence can be maintained outside of the office, where we are surrounded by 60% of people we can tolerate, 10% we genuinely we, 10% we have to like, and 10% we detest, all while maintaining a go-getter attitude amongst noise and chaos, we slowly began to loathe our existence and gain utterly nothing but self-hatred and anxiety about what could-have-been.

Very few of us can effectively communicate with others from behind a camera. If you can communicate with others, then you are having a really good day, but it is not guaranteed that the person on the other side of that camera even cares about what you are talking about. Only the best of the best can develop a rapport that allows for a successful back-and-forth through a computer. The side that does the talking is full of themselves in that they perceive their underlings to care about what they are talking about.

They don't take the time to get to know what it is that their underlings are experiencing, or if their subordinates are doing well enough to gain more traction. If I could have, I would have hung up every single call that I had while working remotely, because none of them served me. In fact, none of my bosses ever asked me what it is that I would change, or how it is that I would manage my job and my aspirations within my career.

It was always talk-at-you-talk-at-you-talk-at-you. And if you were doing the same, rote job that you knew so-well before the pandemic, you saw that your managers really were - people pushers, meeting holders, time wasters. Because if they did not have you to talk to, then what else would they do? 

True subordinates like me were not given a chance to craft their job in any sort of way that fit their needs, and most needs do consist of being at an office. It's so disappointing that bosses suck so badly and wasted so much of our time during Covid, because there is no going back to what things were before the pandemic. 

And the leaders and bosses who espouse working from home are the ones who don't really have time to work anyway. They're loaded with kids and mortgages and the only thing so far as I can tell that they know how to do is waste time via speaking, and not directing.

Is it possible to sue the government - forget sovereign immunity - for scaring our corporations into sending us home for years and ruining our lives and everything that we had built up via a strong work-ethic at the office? I'm talking about about work - not the talking mumbo-jumbo that our mid-level managers subjected us to day-in-and-day-out to prove their control over us and to prove their 6-figure salaries to their do-nothing mangers? What about all the nonsense talk that people in IT and technical positions were exposed to - talk that most people can see through and easily slice through? What about our needs that were usurped and displaced?

Did no one in the whole United States have the sense in July 2021 - after restaurants and barber shops starting opening up - to tell us that we could safely sit in an office? Or are we that loathful of others? Yes, we are. We are inherently Hobbesian and our staying at home did not put the greater good into consideration. It was under the guise that 'flexibility is key. we can do the job from home.' That's what you think. You don't know anything because you make the determinations of others and are not trying to expand your skillset and your career.

Thanks to Covid and sending all of us home, my life was completely ruined, and I was let go by mid-levelers who never listened to me, and had me doing the most rote and meaningly tasks, all while wasting my time and subjecting me to their non-sense talk. They taught me literally nothing during Covid, and I'm sure there are others like us.

Elon Musk and others maybe had the sense to say that we should come back to the office, but where were our leaders? Where were the voices of psychology and education who told us that the experiment of working from home was a failure? Where was leadership? 

How can we get back at them.

Is China Experiencing Deflation?

 Hey, what ever is up with you? 

I'm gonna start writing more blog posts. In recent news, I was laid off from my job, and I think I will start blogging about the economy and finance. More specifically, I am interested in uncovering whether the economic data and reports that we receive from #cnbc #themainstreammedia holds water.

For instance, we are told that China is in a deflationary state. As for last week - around August 10, 2023 - it was widely and vastly reported that China is experiencing deflation, and that is from both fewer exports to Western and other Asian countries as well as less consumption internally. You ears may be pricked upon hearing deflation, and, in some degree, you may regard this as good for consumers because you are paying less for good that were formally more expensive. In fact, deflation and a falling currency is what led to Germany's sad economic state in the 1930's and and fostered the malaise that eventually led to World War II.

I think we can see this as a result of China's 'isolationism.' I think when we read these reports we should take a step back and wonder if this is China's real aim - to be economically not reliant the rest of the world, and that is a firm no. After all, why would China have created the 21st Century Silk Road, and all that. I dunno,  but I've been watching BABA's stock lately - because when I hear stop, I tell myself that I should really pull the trigger - and I am still going to keep buying it. I think China will figure itself out and we won't need to worry about shrill media reports. At least that's my hope...So I'm going to try to figure out if China's production is really waning and what they are reporting about us through their websites. 

What to do when you are frustrated at work

We have all been there. Ahem, let me rephrase. We are all there. Deadlines, last-minute changes, pressing tasks, and conflict with coworkers.

A simple disruption derails an otherwise great day.
The best solution is to take the changes and constant disruptions in stride and to learn how to enjoy the complications as they arise. Each complication presents a challenge but also an opportunity to learn, to grow, and to better understand how each of us deals with change. After a long day's work, and after overcoming seemingly insurmountable tasks, we will feel better about ourselves.

Annoying things at the work place include but are not limited to:
- the typing of another coworker (the precision becomes too much to bare. It is steady and hums perfectly, almost as though he is making no typos, and just like he is putting the perfect weight upon each key). Such perfection is annoying. Put your headphones on and move on with your life.
- the fact that your boss has a space heater that is used during the summertime (it's 80 god-damn degrees outside - fuck off).
- the breathing of another coworker
- their faces


Sometimes you are asked to do something by 

1) Listen to classical music.
There is no better way to hammer through a stressful day than intense Mozart. 
2) Immerse yourself in your task.
There is nothing more important than the task you have set forth for yourself. Do this task with gusto and do not allow any distraction. If distraction arises in the form of an email, an IM, a beep, a sneeze, a gesture or a hand-wave, literally wave it off until you have come to a stopping point.
3) Take breaks.

Interesting sites and photos

I cannot attribute these images to myself. As for attribution, I will say that they were found somewhere on the interwebs. 

38 and Counting Thought Dead and Resurrected -- All Had Covid-19

 

Morticians, coroners, doctors, and dozens of families across the world are shocked that family members thought to have died from COVID-19 are now back among the living.

 

The revelation that the heart can regain a beat after 6 days' death has shaken the nation, as an estimated 38 individuals worldwide have actually become awakened after presumed death from COVID-19. The scientific discovery has flummoxed the world, as coroners have been bombarded with COVID deaths over the past 2 years, and had always seen that a presumed dead was, indeed dead. But recently, research is showing that some presumed-dead have taken on life, and 37 of the 38 had not yet been put in the ground.

In all cases, the body had tested positive for COVID-19, and had been presumed dead. Many bodies had been buried, and only 1 buried body has escaped her grave. This was  was 36-year-old Tricia Stevens of Newport, Indiana. In Tricia's case, her family had buried her only 3 feet underground, instead of the usual 6', and had also given her a wooden casket that was easily destroyed with her ninja-clawing hands. The former body-builder has now joined a group of 37 former dead-turned-living COVID-19 survivors. They say their main mission is to convince the world to wait at least 10 days before putting their dead relatives in the ground, and they encourage coroners to make their body bags unzippable from the inside. 

This shocking and unprecedented finding is presumed to come from an expected confluence of factors involving COVID-19 and the individual being in unusually good shape. Church members around the word are rioting, and legislators are quick to work with hospitals on operable body-bags.

race and gender politics much?

I happened upon ideologies and schemas as of late that I am very much unaccustomed to in my present life, but ideologies and schemas in tune with a lifestyle I found comfortable as a child in Catholic school down South. As a result of this newfound exposure, I have welcomed a transformation and acceptance within myself, but not without the realization that discomfort with society and surroundings spawns from liberal political and social trends of the past 20 years.

I will preface by saying my concerns within the political arena are negligible and passive. There are 2 realms in politics that, however, everyone contends with and everyone has opinions on:  the social and the economic.

The United States is clearly one of the most capitalistic countries on the planet and belongs to a class of laissez-faire, liberal economies that provide for open capital markets, stock markets, free markets, and an abundance of profit and ca$h money. Marx says it all best. As for society, we Americans are, again, "liberal"; we are gay and proud; we are politically correct, and we know when to shut the fuck up ("Facebook" and "The Oscars" will shut us down if otherwise and #BlackLivesMatter). The opinions of pundits infiltrate our minds to a point we do not even realize it has happened, so we are left tip-toeing past every issue, unsure of when or how to speak up, and we are sure to steer clear from public embarrassment or public challenge. In 2 ways, you can see, the United States is Liberal AF.

I see both issues to be the contributing factors to my discomfort and existential dread. My parallel self - 32-year-old Amy who was born in 1886 - would recoil from this rift mainstream liberalism has inflicted upon me. But I cannot help but envy the lives of my white-collar, educated grandparents.

My contribution to society consists mostly of liaising with colleagues, putting shiny buttons on websites, and paying taxes. The role contributes to the education and betterment of the global society by offering an elite educational product at a very low cost.  I contribute to society and have done so every day of my life since the age of 16 when I started waiting tables. I never allowed my bank account to get under a couple grand, and I always sought ways to help others through my work. Yet somehow the political reality TV show of all of our lives barks at me that I should fell ashamed and guilty. What do I need to apologize for?

How do I benefit from any of the harm inflicted upon others?  I don’t feel like I’m complicit in genocide; the horrors of immigration; the decay of traditional ideals to make room for more social welfare. At the same time, I do not feel morally obligated into political activism, and in fact I think that donating money yields better results than showing up at political rallies for the disenfranchised. Money is far more effective at achieving most things in life, but money must be earned honestly and not in great excess (I would hope we all know what that means). I would advise any person who feels left out or who feels disenfranchised to get a job or get a hobby. Just provide for yourself and try to give less of a fuck about race and gender politics?

To elaborate, The Wall that Orange Julius wants us to put up is way too hyped in the media. I was speaking with a Chinese friend about this issue, and my friend remarked that this "small amount of money" is nothing to bewail and also that a governor and China could easily 把这件事情高定！ (solve the situation and put the wall up is the best way I can translate that into English, but it sounds so much smoother in Chinese). I am not saying that this is not a great deal of money - because it is, but in general the federal government is capable of such a vast amount of prodigal waste. While I advocate for a bigger and more effective government (see Germany and Northern Europe), I want funds earmarked for infrastructure, education, regulations on the environment, national parks, the arts, and science. I absolutely think entrepreneurs and developers only want to make big profits, and the notion that tech bro's are coming up out of the woodwork is utterly frightening and the things of my nightmares - your products are shitty.

A free education in this country is a privilege and a luxury, and it's a shame more people do not praise this or the positive sides of our federal government. Instead, we are are stuck worrying about the disenfranchised while hard-workers such as myself are not even considered in job applications due to a wide-array of experiences, jobs, interests, and fields of interest. I regret not having had appreciated education more, and if my genes are not washed out of the pool - which seems ever-more likely as of late, which is a damn shame - then that will the number one thing I will try to get across to my son or daughter. I don't mean to sound didactic, but I find people to be too lax on hard-work and education. I wish my teachers and my parents had been stricter, the way Asian families are. This also ties into what I think about the federal government, or a paternal-style of governing system. People need guidance. We are Americans, but to hell with individualism. At the same time, I don't believe that you need to listen to your teachers - if you look at them, then you will know how life really is.

So when I say that I am not used to the political and social notions I am currently thinking about, I mean that I am in the unfortunate predicament of having - very few - and having always have had - very few - positive influencers in my life besides my own family. I often feel I am surrounded by crude  only given douses of such social settings when I am surrounded by my family. So little value catches my eye, and I think I like authoritarianism#fckfreedom.

好开心哦

我高兴的很！

在这个黑黑的心在一个很深的地方，我知道。 我也知道我2018是一个非常浪费的一年。来和我总结一下： 2018 是否我最讨厌的一年吗？是吧是吧是吧。去年我比如一点的进步都没有。恨死了别的性除非和他们干事你知道吗。今年一定会不一样？为什么？ 因为我已经一年多单身。 这是在我的生活里最长的时间我当一个单身的人和，你踩踩吧，我非常喜欢当单身的人。 没有人可以管我， 我也有能力认识更多的人。认识的朋友们多的很。

除了这个我生活有什么意义吗？ 我爱我家人，不过我不经常去看他们。 我爱挣钱， 不过如果我公司给我开除我一点也不管，我有钱，我有股本和投资，我有能力和我的身体和脑海。去他们多。。。

我不知道我应该写的什么除非我非常很男人， 男性。。。我为什么会浪费我的时间和男人干事吗？我说是话喜欢操他们而已。 为什么他们会这么给我找麻烦吗。。。不过问题是网上认识的男人。他们必须地比我可怜所以我又想问： 他们为什么给我找麻烦？以后我不再认识男人在网络。 我就是现在会挖挖我的储备。。。那么多。。。男人好简单。就给他们打个电话，说过来，他们就在。这一点我喜欢。 下课，下班的一点我不喜欢。

我对不起了。 我32岁但一点后悔都没有。我在我的生活的顶端。我不想结婚，我好喜欢当以个单身的人， 就是我不要你对我开始有感觉！ 这一点我非常讨厌。 我一点喜欢你但是真的， 在这少的一课就想和你干一件事。